The Sound of Nothingness

Everything had been flowing so smoothly, work with clients on new projects was proceeding, and creativity was flowing so easily. All was well. Then, in the area of creativity I was most excited about, things came to a grinding halt. “What the hell?” I thought. The stop of the flow was driving me crazy. Here I was, so ready and excited and I just wanted to go, go, go.

But nothing was coming to me. I literally could not do anything. I was not “receiving” anything.

It is amazing what our intuition is trying to tell us to do. But right now, what I am finding more interesting is what it is telling us not to do.

In hindsight, I learned that my intuition was trying to do was telling me to do “nothing”. It was telling me that "something was not finished" in that area. The reason no creativity was coming in for me on that channel, was because there was something "not done yet" with the last project I was working on. My eagerness to get on with things, blinded me to the fact that my intuition was telling me to stop and wait for resolution, before things could proceed again.

Listening to the sound of my intuition, when it isn’t telling me anything at all is one of the hardest things for me. As I’m learning to absolutely, always, totally trust my intuition, the times I find the most difficult, as those when intuition is giving me no answer at all. In my experience, when my intuition gives me absolutely no read, positive or negative, the message is actually to “Wait” or “Not proceed.”


So, I am having to develop faith. Faith that my intuition is giving me the right message for me at the right time. Faith in my own process, and the natural flow of things.
As my good friend said about intuition, "It's amazing how we are happy to use intuition as the gas pedal, but not the emergency brake." No truer words have been said about intuition. I was so excited to keep on progressing that I did not want to pay attention, or switch lanes to another area, where it was still flowing.


I'm trying to remember this lesson this time. I know that each time I don’t grasp a life lesson, it just comes back in a more obvious and harsher form. I’ve been beaten up enough at this point in my life, that I am finally happy to gratefully accept the lesson and move on.


I’m happy to say, once the unresolved issue resolved, and I was able to absorb the lesson around the unresolved issue, the creativity immediately started flowing again.


I thank Intuition once again, for helping me by cautioning me to stop and wait before proceeding, for my highest good.

Intuition - The Gift That Keeps On Giving

An old friend of mine was in town a few weeks ago from a far away city. I don’t see him very often, but he is one of my oldest and dearest friends. Because I don’t see him often, I wanted to get him something for his birthday, that would remind him of me.

We only had two hours to spend together and I had to pick him up on the other side of town. I asked him if he wanted to stop at a rock shop on the drive back to my house as I was working on developing my intuition, and shopping would be an easy and fun way to exercise that muscle. The shop is near my house, but I had never actually stopped there in the six years I have lived in the neighborhood.

Before we entered the store, I told him that I wanted him to “feel around” with his intuition and see if there was anything in the store that he would like. “To the left” he said immediately and without hesitation as we entered the store.

We veered to the left side of the store and encountered a floor-to-ceiling shelf with all kinds of rock knick-knacks on it. He was immediately drawn to a butterfly made out of variegated orange agate rock slices, hinged in the middle with the bronze body of a butterfly. “I really don’t need more knick-knacks. But I love this!” he said. I encouraged him to keep it with him while we looked around the store.

We found a rock reference book and looked up the meaning of orange agate. We went to the cash desk and I bought it for him. We had only been in the store for about 9 minutes tops, including it took the time to look in the rock reference books.

I was thrilled that we got to use our intuition and that it was so easy. Most of all I was thrilled to get him a gift that he liked.

Flash-forward to yesterday…..I was having a horrible day. I had very little sleep for two nights in a row, I was having a horrible period and everything seemed gloomy. Work was crushing and overwhelming. It looked like an upcoming party was not going to happen. I had no love for myself and it didn’t feel like anybody else had love for me either.

I was sitting in my car wondering if I could make it through the entire afternoon without falling asleep or crying my eyes out. I asked out loud for the Universe to give me just one concrete sign that I was loved.

I dragged myself back up to my office and sat down in my chair. I was sitting deciding whether I should let myself have a full-blown cry before I tackled the rest of my work. At that very second my cell phone rang.

It was my friend. He was calling in the middle of the day from his city. He said “Hi, I just wanted to call you and tell you I love this butterfly!” “Thank God you did”, I said, “I was just going to have a total meltdown because I feel like I don’t have friends.”

He told me that he felt like he was just “supposed” to call me. “Quite often I don’t listen to these impulses, because I’m not in a good mood or I have to have a shower or whatever. But I just thought I should call you, so I did.”

What a great and magical intuitive tool that butterfly is! When I dug deeper the meanings of the orange butterfly were even more interesting. Orange is associated with the second chakra - all about personal power, creative and emotion related energies, according to http://www.bellaonline.com/. If your sacral chakra is in balance, then you find yourself on an even keel. An unbalanced sacral chakra can affect your creativity, blocking the ability to come up with new artistic works, or to create new ideas to solve issues in your life.
The fact that his butterfly was orange is significant for many reasons. We met each other through the arts, and my friend works as a professional artist. Yesterday, my sacral chakra was out of balance as I was riding the roller coaster of emotions all the way down. The Universe found a delightful way to balance my sacral chakra out and also continue to surprise me.

According to A. Venefica, http://www.whats-your-sign.com/, butterfly symbolism speaks of resurrection, transition, celebration, lightness, time, and soul.
In many cultures’ myths the butterfly is a symbol of transformation because of its impressive metamorphosis. The pupae’s entire life changes to such an extreme it is unrecognizable at the end of the transformation. The deepest symbolic lesson of the butterfly is that she asks us to accept the changes in our lives as she does. She unquestioningly embraces the changes in her environment and her body.

The butterfly’s unwavering acceptance of her metamorphosis is also symbolic of faith. The butterfly beckons us to keep our faith as we undergo transitions in our lives. In Greek myth, Psyche is represented in the form of a butterfly and is forever linked with love as she and Eros shared an endlessly passionate bond together.

The butterfly was working as a two way receiver, connecting us with love and beckoning us to keep our faith as we both travelled through transition.

Gotta love intuition, yet again.

Shopping with your Intuition

Shopping might be viewed as a rather shallow way to use your intuition. However I find it is one of the best ways to strengthen it. If you can develop it in your mundane daily decisions, you would be surprised by the quality of your choices, and also how many additional messages you might receive along the way.

I find the best way to see if your Intuition is correct is to actually follow it. I am coming to this conclusion usually after NOT following it many, many times always to my detriment.

My intuition has ALWAYS been right. When will I actually believe that? J I guess when I decide to listen to it absolutely, positively, 1000% of the time and as a result my life flows as smoothly as silk.

You will see from the following conversation between my intuitive mind and my “rational” mind that sometimes that is a huge struggle for me. (Luckily no one can hear these conversations except me…and that is bad enough.)

Reason: “Geez…I see the toystore I was headed to for my niece’s birthday present went out of business.”

Intuition: “Hey you - the name of that other kids’ store that just popped into your head – your niece would really, really love something that is in that store, for her birthday…”

Reason: Ignores Intuition. Keeps thinking of possible of solutions.

Intuition: “Hey you - I’m telling you she wants something that is in that store”.

Reason: “That store is too far.”

“It’s not too far if you go this way…[shows me a map of the route in my head]”

“Okay, but what about the traffic at lunch time?”

“I promise, the traffic will be light.”

“Doesn’t that store only sell clothes? I bet they don’t even have toys…”“The store has something your niece really wants for her birthday.”

“I have to get back to the office right away to give Dick that information he wanted…”“Dick isn’t even in the office this afternoon.”

“How do you know? Alright, but you’d better be right…I’ll go to the darn store”

K gets to the store…

Reason: “So what is the thing she wants?” asks, as K moves around the store looking at things.

Intuition smiles but doesn’t answer and stays silently smug.

Reason: “Am I buying the right thing? Is this what she wanted?”

Intuition still doesn’t answer, keeps smiling and not answering.

K takes the presents to the till for gift-wrapping and then leaves the store to buy some lunch, while the presents are being gift-wrapped.

K comes back in the store, is immediately drawn to the first thing she looked at in the shop and didn’t buy. K instinctively now knows this is the right thing, the thing she was supposed to buy. K takes this item to the till to buy it. K leaves store and drives back to work.

As she drives, K feels in her body and her mind, more and more, that the item she got is the thing she was supposed to buy.

Reason: “Great. Okay you were right. Fine. Thanks. Is that what you wanted to hear? Thanks.”

Intuition decides to be smug all day, but keeps laughing quietly while Reason is once again forced to admit defeat. Intuition is even more smug when K’s niece opens the gift and immediately loves it.

Score: Intuition - 3, 697, 884 correct
Reason – 3 (probably when it decided to align with Intuition)

Really it’s amazing Intuition keeps helping me out after all the attitude it gets from me.

Once again, thanks Intuition!!