Heavyweight

I had a dream last night. My mom’s boyfriend, who is an entrepreneur, had set up a boxing match. It was a fight between a woman I didn’t know against an established male boxer. It looked like a really uneven fight – definitely the experienced boxer would win. At the last minute, the girl bowed out of the match, and I had to take her place. For some reason unbeknownst to me, it was really important that the boxing match go ahead. Instead of running away or protesting against the ridiculousness of the match, in the dream, I determined that I had to go ahead with it.

Just before I woke up I remember thinking in the dream “This established boxer is going to kick the crap out of me. I know physically I am outmatched. How can I use my mind to win this match, even though it looks impossible?” I also remember putting black eyeshadow on my eyes, although I’m not sure if it was to make me look scary or pretty, but it seemed important for some reason.

I told my coach about this session, and we started trying to unravel the pieces of this dream. We established that my mom’s boyfriend is an entrepreneur, involved in a lot of projects I don’t really understand. She suggested that perhaps he was showing me something about my own entrepreneurial interests – perhaps showing things I don’t understand about my own business myself. We were trying to figure out the significance of the “fight”.

I told my coach that during the day I had been reading some New Age magazines like Mosaic and Synchronicity and didn’t realize it at the time, but I had been thinking things like “Wow. There’s no way my little voice and humble ideas could compete with Louise Hay, Stephen Farmer, and all those other….heavyweights.” As soon as the word tumbled out of my lips, I knew what the fight in the dream was about.

My subconscious didn’t believe there was room enough in the world for my ideas. After all, what is the significance of what I have to say compared to the big wigs of the New Age personal development industry?

(I never thought about the symbolism involving the making up of my eyes until later. According to whats-your-sign.com, the eye is the window to the soul, which may explain why the symbolic meaning of eyes tends to be of a spiritual nature. This to me indicates the dream was trying to tell me about the links to my spiritual projects, such as this blog. This confirms in an even deeper way what the dream was trying to tell me.)

My coach told me that she didn’t think I was connecting with those people who my blog is targeting. Perhaps that is because I haven’t had the courage to send it out to even one person yet!! What a surprise that I wasn’t connecting with anyone if no one even knew about it.

“Send the blog link out to one person”, she told me. “Just take baby steps.”

She told me a lot of stuff I know already and agree with, but apparently was not feeling deep down. Each of us is unique, and has a unique message. Even if the exact same message has already been shared many times, the unique individual spin I put on it is destined to reach the ears of one particular person, or perhaps several, or perhaps millions. There is a reason I need to share my message in my own unique way. That is the way things are designed in this Universe. Her point was, I will never know when or if that message finds its intended audience, unless someone actually reads what I write.

So here I am in the ring – my humble voice. I’ve put up my dukes and I’m giving it my best shot! Read away and I appreciate any comments you might have.